(RE) iTS JUST A BAY THING !

"She may be using the N word , but EVERYBODY in the BAY uses the N word and she grew up with black people , so I'm really ain't tripping . Kreayshawn , on the other hand , her song " Gucci Gucci " was nominated for best " NEW ARTIST OF THE YEAR " in VMA's , but did not win" -Vincent Ly

    I agree my boy Vincent ! Everybody i mean everybody in the BAy uses the "N" word. Yea its kind of ridiculous that people still think about it as a bad thing i think it is a bay thing. i kind of believe since she was around people and brought up in the town i kind of think that the black people kind of influenced her into using the "N" word so what the hell is the bad thing and what are people bitchin about? She was around them and they got it stuck on her.I wouldnt be tripping about her using the "N" word thats just kind of the way she expresses herself, i believe everyone expresses themselves diffrently and thats just how she does it. People shouldnt be judging her and saying she cant say that word or she shouldnt use it their are plenty of other words that people or singers use and they're making a big deal about hers that is some bull. They should really get to know her and see how she is and then give their opinion. AS for now i kind of think it is a bit disrespectful and not right for them to tell her what she can say and not say freedom of speech bitches! And she raps and uses the "n" word thats why they like her for her rapping skills and how she present them. V-Nasty SHEE GOOO !

  Gucci Gucci Kreayshawn that is my song, everyone likees that song i think it should of won in the VMA'S it was better than any of these other wacky ass songs that got picked out. I think it is amazing how they both are from the bay that is hella cool. I think more and more underground artist are really good at what they do and they deserve to be put up there and being famous and attending the VMA'S and everything.

(RE) On to the Next :D

" Be the stronger person in this and just act like it doesn't faze you. One day he'll realize he lost someone good and is gunna wanna come back, but you'll be on bigger and better things. Guys aren't gunna help you get through school and stuff so just focus on school and let this boys do what there best at, and that's being DICKS. The right one will come at the right time" * -Tehani Mckeown

  Amen to that girl ! My girl Tehani preach that. Guys aren’t worth it they just stay playing retarded games. Don’t ever but him on your priorities list because they really really have to work to be put on that. Why because they aint worth it, just think of him as a friend he aint shit. No guy really deserves to have a girls full attention. And no guy should think its okay to just get up and leave things, it aint right you cant just leave a girl hanging. We have feelings and sometimes they’re sensitive to things like that. The guy missed out he left you but what he doesn’t realize is that you are his trash but another mans treasure. And he will regret every single little bad thing he did to you and he’s gunna be all alone . Meanwhile you livin it up and having the time of you life with a new guy.

  I am not saying it will be easy to just forget about a guy and act like nothing happened and you will be fine the next day, because you really thought the kid loved you as much as you loved him and he had you heart and threw it away. It will take time the healing process is hard but it will be fine and you will find a new guy. There are plenty of fish in the sea. J Just keep your head up brush your shoulders off, be cool wanna be friends with him and don’t seem all butt hurt about the situation. What happened happened and there is no going back because it aint worth it. He cant fix the broken heart he gave to you and he cant whip all the tears you cried because he left you all alone for yourself to deal with it.

(Free) My Ideal Boyfriend

  As a girl we all know what we want in a guy and In our little heads we have an “Ideal Guy” . Yes we do girls you know it! For me, my ideal boyfriend would make me smile and make me happy. My parents have gave me advice on guys and I really think they are right in what I should look for in a guy so I could be happy with him. I can really trust what my mom has told me she has seen many teenage relationships gone wrong. She was a careers with children teacher at a high school. Yes she has seen pregnant teens and young moms being single with no help, and of course she doesn’t want me to end up like that. So when she doesn’t approve of a guy I know their must be something wrong with the kid because she doesn’t just say it to say it she has a reason. I am in no position to have a boyfriend and at this age I really think that I don’t need one. I would love to have guy friends and have fun with them. But I am to young for a relationship. I am not prepared for a relationship I cant be serious I am 15 years old. But I can see relationships observe them and learn from them. So I can slowly be developing the guy I would like to be with.

  When I observe relationships I see that there are girls who have boyfriends and they are drinkers and smokers. YUCK turn off. Now why would I want THAT in a guy OH NO. That is a no no, those boys are damaging their body and looking at a bad future ahead of them. So my guy would have to be a non smoker and drinker. The boy would have to be serious and be able to settle down. Think about the future he would have with me in it. Be honest caring and loving. Have a nice family and have good communicated. Not an angry person but a sweet person. Knows how to be independent but could have me to support him in any his dreams and goals or achievements.

  By the time as I get older and observe more I will add on to the list and maybe even subtract from the list. But overall this ideal boyfriend could be out there for me. And if I meet someone and doesn’t meet these standards deuces dude.

(biweekly) In The Dark

In The Dark BLACKOUT!!!!! OH SNAP ! A stormy rainy dark day in Mexico i was frighten. It was a vacation I really didn't come to Mexico to be stuck in the house. I really thought i would be outside near the pool or river getting some sun. But no it was a bad time. When it rains in Mexico it rains. I looked outside and the so called street we walked on looked like a weird brown dirty river was passing by. I thought the houses were going to sink.

  I was in the home of my grandparents they were so chill having some Mexican bread with some Mexican creamy hot chocolate. While i was panicking about the rain they told me to relax its just rain but it was nothing like i was use to, it never have rained hard in Alameda like it was here. BOOM thunder bright flashing lighting LIGHTS WENT OUT pitch dark i couldn't see anything the thunder so loud and sounding so powerful. My grandma told me we are going to be out of light for awhile. Go outside to your abuela Flor's old house next door. I couldn't say no to my grandma so here i go leaving threw the back door passing my the corral and into my great grandmothers house. Super dark no light and to top it off i had no flashlight that was what i had to look for and some candles.

  I never really like going to my abulea Flor's house because she died there i never went in by myself but hey, theres a first time for everything. When i opened the door a rush of cold air went by me goose bumps. My grandma told me that the candles would be in my great grandmothers room in the dresser right next to her bed. I walked slowly with my wet shoes thinking i could fall the floor felt a bit slippery i used my hands so they can guide me the walls felt rough. I knew from where i entered was the back door which goes into the kitchen i touched the sink making sure i was where i thought i was i guided my way to finding the hall way OUCH i kind of almost fell it was a disturbing annoying trashcan that hit the floor hard. I stumbled a bit i picked the metal can up. I was in the hall way i knew from the hall way their were two doors you could go in to enter a room. But i remember my abulea Flor's room door had a type of Burgundy silky drape. I check to the right it wasn't it i felt a cold door knob.I swinged my hand to the my left, felt like silk this was it i walked in.

  I tripped and stumbled a few times but in one of those i felt a bed frame in the dark her room seemed huge but it wasn't. Once i felt the wood bed frame i came around felt the cotton sheets i remember the last time i saw them they were light pink beautiful. I went towards the front I felt the dresser i opened it and i think i made a mess in there because i moved me hands back and forth trying to feel for a candle or a flashlight. I had to go way in there to be able to find candle sticks i felt the sticks waxy. I found the candle stands they were metal i knew they where because i felt the hole where the candle goes it was hard and cold. Next i found the big fat flashlight.

  I hurried up and turned it on i was tired and so puzzled in being in the dark kind of frustrated. I lighted the room up looked around and I noticed that the room looked the same as it always does exactly the way my abulea Flor left it. I walked away flashing my way threw with the illuminated flashlight. I went back to my grandmother dark house she was waiting for me at the door she told me,” good you found them i was going to go in there and help you you took kind of long.” Having light or at least a couple of candles and a flashlight was better than nothing. I was glad when the lights came on which seemed like a century later. What a vacation i thought wood be bright and shiny :)

(re) Males Males how Gross Gross

"Males need to start thinking about how it would feel if they had their heart broken. Some girls give into peer pressure and end up doing something they truly regret. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad for the guy to say "NO" for once. Ever thought of that? It wouldn't be horrible if the guy was the one who said "NO" for once." -Jennifer Cully
  
Okay let me just say that I can tell you that what Jennifer wrote about is so true I totally hands down agree with her. I have seen many situations and also heard story's that girls have told me about what guys want from them and what they tell them and honestly some of these guys are like SUPER GROSS! But I do think that some of these girls are what I call "easy" and they should value themselves a bit more and not get so caught up with a guy.
  
  Yea males should know how it feels to have their heart broken but if they haven't yet felt it I am sure that their day will come. The inappropriate things that guys say should be brought to someone’s attention so there could be a stop to it. Guy shouldn't really be saying inappropriate things or trying to have sex with a girl and expecting things from a girl that she isn't ready for. I also wonder where in the world are their parents at I think that parents should pay more attention and know what their child is doing on their phone or on the internet. 

  I am a very trustworthy person and people really trust me with stuff. One of my closest friends once told me some drama about her and a guy she was talking to. But I guess they were friends or something I don't know bottom line he wanted a lot from her. He was very friendly to her and she really thought he was really into her. Then she came one day and told me that she was going to hang out with him. They would text all the time and stuff but never really talked in person which to me was pretty weird. She once told me when they first met the first text they ever had like by the 3rd one he asked her for what I call a dirty picture, that's how it seemed to me when she described what he wanted. When they hung out he tried pulling a move on her and trying to pressure her into having sex thank god she didn't and ever since that happened he kind of stopped talking to her how pitiful he’s so disrespectful. That story in specific makes me agree with Jennifer so so so much!

  

(free) I know we're cool :)

Have you ever heard the old song by Gwen Stefani Cool. That is one of my favorite songs it remind me of a lot of things. The song sings about a couple and the couple  thought they would never move on without each other and that it seemed almost impossible to forget about each other, but when they split because it wasn't right they ended up finding a new mate and falling in love again with another person other than with each other. But although it seemed impossible and they ended it on a good note they are still cool and they ended up liking the outcome of the situation.

  The song to me is a bit uplifting and to tell you the truth it kind of gives me hope. It gives me hope in numerous situations and outcomes of a situation, that may turn out bad and you might have to leave someone behind but it’s for the best and you will probably like it. Although I don't refer to this song because of like an ex boyfriend but just in general with anybody you may have a bond with it can be a best friend it can be anybody, and it is a good song for me to refer to, because sometimes I just have to leave some stuff behind in my life and move on from them although it may seem like I won’t ever forget, I will and I am living proof that you can forget about serious stuff that might hurt you.

  I have experienced a lot of situations where people are in my life and they just leave and although I never really wanted them to leave and I couldn't see myself without them things happen, and either way they left things being cool. Just because they left they will still and always be with me no matter what . LOOKING AT THE BRIGHT SIDE, EVERYTHING WILL TURN OUT BEING COOL.

(free) My Moment For Life

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     Mis XV anos. That day was my moment, it was my day. My quince was sparkling stunning and beautiful surrounded by loved ones was the best feeling ever. So much effort put in it and seeing it all come to life  i was so amazed! The Traditional thing to do when a young Mexican girl turns 15 is being welcomed and recognized to be turning into a young woman.
    The day of my party my day started off early from hair and makeup and changing to my dress and going in the limo with my dearest friend Dani my siblings and my cousins all to just take some stunning pictures at the exploratoruim  in San Francisco and the Mormon Temple in Oakland. Then we were on our way to the venue which was at the Alameda Hotel we had a blast yelling out the window of the limo and blasting music. Settling down and freshening up getting some food in my system before i do my entrance. I also had an awesome type of photo shoot at the venue with my friends taking cool random pictures by a professionally photographer and taking some pictures with my family. Once i settled down i was told to go in the front wait for the music and then begin to walk making an entrance. This had to be one of many of my favorite moments i had during this day. It was amazing because i did it to my favorite song and i tweaked the song a bit for the dj to play my song MOMENT 4 LIFE by Nicki Minaj. When i entered and listened to the song and saw everyone i felt like crying, but i didn't waving to the people who have always been there for me them cheering i mean come on who wouldn't want to let some tears come down. I greeted every single person that was invited and they congratulated me and they told me how amazing i looked and commenting on my dress hair and makeup everyone agreed i looked beautiful.      
    The day was filled with alot of entertainment from me dancing the Val's of the butterfly's the changing of the shoes, which was when my mom took my lovely Toms off and put me some heels. The dance with my last doll which was special it was a twin of me wearing a big quince dress and special to me because it was my last doll which is kind of sad. Giving me my last doll is telling me i am not a little girl anymore i am turning into a women and i don't need dolls anymore.I got to receive the doll by my little cousin who does play with dolls. There was a choreography to go with receiving the doll which was really cute. I had my little cousin in a similar dress as mine dancing towards me giving me a hug and a kiss and happy to give me my last doll. There was also the two surprise dances i had one with my older brother dancing bachata the song Stand By Me by Prince Royce and i had a belly dancing choreography with my sister to waka waka by Shakira.
   Overall most of the time besides the traditional quinceanera stuff that i just mentioned was alot of dancing. There was all kinds of music playing there was alot of food to eat and alot of treats and cupcakes to eat and drinks it was all so yummy. I am sure everyone enjoyed it and everyone seemed to be so happy for me and so amazed how it all turned out and how beautiful. At the end everyone was telling me they had a great time and that i look beautiful. That was my moment and i will never forget the celebration my family did and introducing me to a new time period in my life where i turn into a woman.

(bc) About me

  Do you like to dance? I sure do like to dance. I wish I could dance better though. Girl you just have to work it but, don’t worry it will be fine. Wait ! I am a bit shy though. Girl get rid of the shyness it isn’t good to be shy. Don’t worry you will learn how to forget about it. GET YOU HIP BELTS ON AND BEGIN TO SHIMMY! Wow that was exciting. I thought the movement that I saw was incredible. I am Mexican not from like India or anything so I thought to myself “how in the world am I going to be capable of doing such movement?” I looked around and saw that nobody could really do such movement like the class instructor did and I am Mexican and me thinking that only like Indian people could do it was like the dumbest thing to think because THE INSTRUCTOR WASENT INDIAN. So that motivated me to believe in myself. I thought you know when you learn something new and you want to get good at it you have to practice, so here I was practicing in front of the mirror trying to get better and better at belly dancing. I really didn’t know what I was getting my self into I guess I just thought I wouldn’t need so much help but I actually did I was trying to move areas in my body and trying to form them and I wasn’t use to it. This wasn’t bachata anymore and it also wasn’t traditional Mexican dancing like stuff I was usually use to. I literally felt awkward I was like “ I look ridiculous doing this”. Believe it or not I was thinking about not going to any of the other classes anymore.

  Although I was motivated I was like “NO” this is not for me. But as you know my mother had to get in it and she began to nag about the money she put into it and everything so I had no choice I had to go back. Then what happened as I kept going to more of the classes I began to get more comfortable in doing what I was doing there were some moves that I was really BOM at doing. The teacher even asked ME to demonstrate. My older sister was the best in the class in doing all these belly dancing moves I was jealous, but don’t think of me as a jealous person I am totally not. She had trouble at stuff I was good at and she needed my help like I needed hers in stuff she was good at. Asking for help wasn’t so bad or even asking the teacher for help after class. Now believe it or not want to know something about me , I am super proud of myself me Vanessa Castro can call herself a belly dancer.

   I overcame the obstacles in belly dancing and mastered all the moves. Guess who passed the beginners class me duh ! Guess who even performs in front of a live audience me! Like I put in so much work into mastering and learning how to belly dance I really hope that this year I will be able to give it my all in my English class and getting help in expanding my vocabulary staying on topic and when writing something how to format it so it can stay in order. In all my English classes I have tried to master controlling my run on sentences and I really haven’t accomplished that and this year I really extremely do want to master writing an essay that contains absolutely no run on sentences. I believe in myself and I believe that this year is going to be a good year and I am expecting to accomplish all goals. Although at one point I will want to just stop trying I cant have any of that. I made a promise to myself. As much as I may not want to I kind of have to and it will be for the best.